For the past few days I have been meditating on so much of God’s goodness in my life, I look back and I can only say that grace helped me walk this journey so far. This write-up has been sitting on my desktop for weeks and now I finally get the time to share some of what has been laid in my heart lately.
I’ve had past struggles with depression, some can probably relate to that. The truth is depression is as real of a disease as cancer. At this point many have questions and need answers, some people get thrown in the darkest of valleys. The account of the man with thirty eight years of infirmity lying beside the pool of Bethesda gave me an insight too what it means to be in a dark valley (John 5: 1-9).
You see it is bad enough that many get thrown into the valley just by circumstances or situations, the devil knows that the one thing worse than a man in a dark valley is simply a lame man in a dark valley, so he does all he can to keep whosoever he can there. A lame man tries to move but there is a limitation and that is what depression does, it limits you. You see depression is an avenue of the devil to cripple you, and stop you from following God’s plan for your life; it makes you feel lethargic and unmotivated to fulfill purpose. There is always the urge to quit.
Depression weakens you but the word of God quickens you. (Psalm 119:50)
Don’t stay in depression for so long, that it becomes way of life, the man at the pool had stayed there for so long that it became a normal thing, he got used to the fact that he may never end up being the first to get into the pool which in turn meant he may never get his healing. The pool had become his home. When you stay too long in the valley it becomes your home. Can you imagine that the man said he had no man? Meaning he had no family or friends to stand by him and even if he did, of what difference does it make? Another may get there before him. Well, that very much sounded to me like a man who has accepted what he has, a man addicted to depression so much it became a way of life. I want to believe that at a point this man had a family member or friend who was ready to help him but they got tired of waiting on him. There is a limit to what friends and families can do, they might be there for a while but nobody is ready to stand with you in a dark valley till forever, only Christ can do that.
Once you fall into a pit of depression, it can be very hard to get out. But, it is possible and you need to be shown the way, by a guard with a flash light through a very dark tunnel. Depression is the ‘feeling’ of hopelessness, and the simple cure for hopelessness is hope (Christ in me the hope of glory, Col 1:27). The hallmark of being hopeless is being purposeless, just like in darkness you will mostly find nothing without light and lose your direction that is the same way one loses sight of their capabilities in the face of depression. The truth is you are the focus of God’s love; he values you too much to allow your whole life goes to a waste. You were made to have value, and you release your value to others. Get this; GOD who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, is more than able and willing to deliver you from the deepest valley.
During my years of depression and times when I drowned in self pity people told me that time would heal things, that hugs were comforting, that tears were relieving, but the truth is time didn’t heal me, Jesus did! Hugs helped for hours but his Words were what stood the test of time, tears felt okay. But the true relief came when I realized he and he alone could make me whole. Don’t be afraid to lose yourself in his presence, stop holding on and just be held. Stop looking for someone to carry you to the pool, just hearken to what God is telling you. There is a faster way to getting out of the dark valley and it is simply responding to Him saying, Rise, take up thy bed and walk. The moment you get hold of these, you discover you are nothing less than hope on two legs walking.
For me I was able to find joy just few months after plunging into depression, some go way deeper than that. One thing I can tell you is that it has only got better since then. In fact these days I look out of my window so excited about life and fulfilling purpose. I am eager to teach and impact with so much excitement. I am excited to answer questions and face challenges! My passion for the Spirit filled life has only grown more and more. Now my joy is found in living and in helping others know that they can indeed find joy in Christ and out of depression!
This is to someone who feels depresses or going through any form of hurt, Jesus is holding out just waiting to pull you out of the deep dark valley, and when he does there is no looking back because the past is OVER and there is no use in wasting today getting depressed over a depressing past. You run the race to win, looking back only slows you down, set your affections on things above (Colossians 3:1) and keep making progress. You are made to break forth, there is no sinking in!
Keep Standing Perfect and Komplete in his will!